Today we all stand at one of those interesting places in life, somewhere that is at once both the end and the beginning. While you might be able to mark a few events in the course of your life as simultaneously an ending and a beginning, it’s usually only in retrospect that you recognize it. Today is rare because we all know it as it’s happening.
While not one who usually believes in looking backward, only forward, the thought that came into my head early this morning was that I wasn’t sure if I was ready for 2009 to end. This has been a great year. If you’ll excuse me for saying so, it has been MY year. No matter what happens in the future, I know I’ll always look at 2009 as an amazing 365 days. It has been a year filled with more emotion, more smiles, more laughter, struggle, triumph, determination, support, appreciation, sweat, accomplishment and love than any of the 25 years I’ve lived before it. Whether it was hard or easy, I’ve enjoyed every single day of this year (which would be more accurately defined as a journey), and even more so from this vantage point, looking back at it all. I started somewhere so much different than where I ended up. This year has given me so much. I’m not sure I really want to leave the year of Me behind.
Yet what I realized after thinking about this for a few minutes took my worries away. 2009 didn’t give me anything. I took from 2009. Everything will come with me into 2010. And, like 2009, 2010 has no innate gifts to offer. It will have good moments and bad moments, too. It’s up to me to take from the next 365 days everything that I want; to achieve goals, to laugh harder, smile easier, worry less, love more, run faster, be stronger. Standing at the end of a year in which I reached out and grabbed every fabulous moment I could….well, that’s actually a great feeling. Will 2010 be better? I don’t know, but I know that it could be, and I know that how wonderful it will be rests largely on my shoulders. And if it’s up to me, then it’s going to be. Plus I’ll be ringing in the new year in a pair of insanely fabulous silver sequined heels, hand in hand with a guy that outshines the sparkliest of shoes, so I know I’ll be off to a good start.
As ‘09 draws to a close, I’m reminded of the wise words of my dad when I told him about my blog & the tri nearly a year ago: “You can do it if you put your mind and body to it, which you are and will. It won’t be easy, but what things are in life that test a person?” I know that I am capable of anything and ready to welcome what the next year has to offer.
I’m reminded of the infinite wisdom of Miley Cyrus, whose words always ring true:
“There’s always gonna be another mountain/I’m always gonna wanna make it move/Always gonna be an uphill battle/Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose/Ain’t about how fast I get there/Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side/ It’s the climb.” I know that I am ready to enjoy every great moment that will come to be in the year ahead.
I’m reminded of a Hallmark card that I love– I don’t think I could say it any better or simpler than this, or I would try: “This is the beginning of another 365 day journey around the sun. Enjoy the ride.” I know that I am looking forward to the adventure.
So goodbye, 2009. I’ll never forget you.
Bring it on, 2010. I am so, so, so ready for you.